it's already the end of my 3rd week at tan tock seng. gosh am i gonna miss ttsh.
why do i love attachments? the patients are all (ok, most) oh-so cute. i love nursing them all, even the weird ones. And i love my colleagues.. oooooo
lotsa things happened during the past few weeks- weird stuff... and it got anand babu all excited whenever he saw him. it's a good thing anand babu and i are not in the same shift. phew! FYI - never trust anand babu to make milo - never tell anand babu anything. NEVER! - never stay in the same cubicle with anand babu for more than 5mins. you'll go crazy!
unfortunate events happened as well- two patients passed away this week... stuff happened to me and some of my colleagues, stuff.. but we're okay
ouh, just to let you guys know. im on detention at cubicle 7. yup yup, sister had speacially brought in a wrapped up cardiac table and she EXPECTS ME to stay in that cubicle for the WHOLE DAY. oh oh, you know why, "patient may fall and i need you to keep an eye on them" *wth* why me and not some ite student? ouh yes! it slipped my mind! we can't help much compared to the YEAR2 ite students. damn! it's worse than detention. "thank you sister" *and i flashed the insincere-est smile i had ever flashed*
i told joyce, she sympathised but can't do much about it. Thank God, the patients and eric were there to provide me entertainment.
there's just too many students in the ward- ite, hmi and np. sometimes i just feel retarded standing around like some bouncer. half of the time i just don't know what to do. i hate that feeling. i don't really like to stand around doing nothing, i'll feel bodoh.
i was utterly upset when i overheard the AN plus a group of ite students talking about us, np students. initially, the conversation was about changing of some drainage bag but it led to something different.
ite: so we change the urine bag r? (oh goodness, their english made mine bad) AN: yes, i dunno how long down there already ite: ok lor.. who want to change r... *giggle giggle* AN: i think you better get those students to look. i think they cannot make it
at that point of time, my morale, self-esteem, pride, ego, whatever!! crashed to the floor. darn, i felt fcukingly hurt. my mood changed drastically, gosh.. for the first time i made an unofficial zuli break and went to sit in the tea room to do some reflection. damn was i devastated. i told the others, they too were affected. it's alright if she felt that way but why didn't she just tell us? must she make us look bad infront of the ite students?
and i kinda dislike this batch of ite people. they act as if they know EVERYTHING and can do ANYTHING!! when ask to be taught, their actions clearly show that they are sending off this "hah-poly-also-dunno-r, i-ite-i-better-lei" aura. i miss the previous batch and those on the female side, they are way nicer and definitely more humble.
some of reports about the patients really break my heart
bed xx-he's young and has no visitors since he was admitted. i wanted to have a talk with him but i had detention all thanks to sister. *thank you sister*
bed xx- he's very sick and faces serious financially problems. i salute his wife for being there for him, she travels from work everyday without fail to visit him.
bed xx- she has dementia and half of the time she's screaming and yelling (source of depression for neighbouring beds). she has no caregiver and her family can't afford to send her to a nursing home.
bed xx- a soft-spoken ah gong who thinks he's better off dead. when he was being wheeled off to go for his scan i asked him in a very cheerful manner, "uncle, where are you going?" "mahu pergi mati," was his immediate response.
bed xx- a very young boy placed among people 3 times his age. he's frustrated due to the depressing environment. whenever his father comes to pay a visit, the old man will turn all livid and start to rile at him. he had done things to us but i feel that nurses should not avoid him. he's lonely and need a companion.
bed xx- he has confused dementia and a bad record. he's on the long list of patients waiting to be accepted in a voluntary home. his chances of getting into one is slim due to his previous actions BUT that does not mean that he should be deprived of proper nurisng care. his caregiver, daughter is semi-mentallly-ill, how can she possibly care for him. to top that, he has a senile wife.
i swear when im a staff nurse, i'll spend more time with patients instead of worrying too much about medication and paperwork (like what i see now). For i believe that patients need emotional support and encouragement to get better.
im really gonna miss ttsh once attachments are over and i can't wait to be a qualified staff nurse. not only can i bully those mean ite students who bully those poor np students, i can provide care for people who really need it.
